accelerating or decelerating?

to iffah and bizhew : Benjamin Kowalewicz is hot, okay.
Better than dima and "whichever singer bizhew likes".
Get it? LOL.
x that out.

the incidents have been rewinding and replaying in my mind.
i'm still feeling regretful for being dumb.
time seems to accelerate when you're there
and decelerate when you aren't.
living hell i'd say.
you made the core of my life aflutter.
the distance between us was less than an arm's length
and yet . . .
i was dumb.
said i would give up. but it's way too hard.

then again, maybe i will.

i read from a source that he has got a crush on someone else.

i feel so horrible inside

i'll only believe what i see.