I've Lost It For Now

i think i've lost my competitive attitude.
it feels kinda weird
'cause as far as i know,
i've been competitive all my life.
(and the level keeps increasing)

but now,
ever since my epic failure in block test,
i seem to have lost
the eagerness to win or to supersede others in everything.

for as far as i know,
i've never failed in anything so badly before
and that kept me competitive
since i know i have the capability to supersede others.

be it in floorball, studies or daily life issues,
i'm no longer as competitive.

it feels quite empty inside.